-Sanguis

    Y00G0tH4Xz0rd0n4PR1L3RD.

    dawruh is a hoe but ilhsvm (:

    and let me slide in to you;
    please babeh x


    2c pls >;l


    -hanse

    I accept, that as my first love, I will never completely get over you. Some wounds will always bleed over you, but it's okay, because what I had with you was the best time of my life. I know I should try and get over you, but that means letting go, and.. I don't want to let go. Even if it means an end to all this pain. I never loved anyone before, as I loved you. You were all-important to me, you still are, but I have to think of myself sometimes. You understand, don't you?

    There's so much I want to say. I can't just fit it into a few stickie notes. I told you that, and I'd hope you understood.

    You see, I think it was the little things that gradually bought us closer. Us going to Bloodstock together was a big step, as was the first time you came to stay.

    I remember the first time you kissed me. I didn't expect it, and I was so shocked. That's probably what caused my first feelings for you, the butterflies in my tummy.

    If you go, I go too.

    Though you may go one way and I the other, I cannot exist without you, and without your love the world holds nothing for me. Everything becomes dull and dreary.

    Once you leave, I start my descent.
    My fall.
    And this time, your arms aren't there to catch me. Your words aren't there to chase away my fears and calm my hysterical sobbing. I have to do this one alone.
    But then it's one of many nights. I survive them.
    And I'm just one person.
    What does it matter?

    QUIT.
    As of April 15th, Wednesday, I'm quitting Habbo. Not for good, but for a good while.
    I have school. I have my future to think about. Whilst young, I want to pursue a career in either Art, Law, Philosophy or Pyschology and this will take full dedication. I finish school at 10PM - I just have no time for this anymore.

    To all my precious friends, thank you. Thank you for making Habbo what it was for me, I'll miss you all so much.
    I love you all!
    - xo

    My best friend, Jon, aka Uninflected. He's my world. <3

    ♥ I'm Dora.
    ♠ I'm in my teens.
    ♦ I play guitar.
    ♣ I love Agalloch.
    ♥ I love Kamelot.
    ♠ I'm in love.
    ♦ I'm colorblind.
    ♣ I have red hair.
    ♥ I love photography/drawingboard.
    ♠ I live in Scotland.
    ♦ I see artwork in everything.
    ♣ I love DeviantART.
    ♥ I love Alice in Wonderland.
    ♠ I'm pierced.
    ♦ I'm Greek.
    ♣ I love Starbucks.

    I don't know how I can ever put into words what I feel. In fact, I don't think it's even possible. Should I try? I'm going to.

    When I met you, I was looking for someone else. He seems so insignificant now, compared to you. I never thought that one day, we'd have everything I'd wanted in a relationship.
    You are perfect for me. All the little things you do for me, the way you tolerate my bad moods, the way you look at me, the way you know exactly what I want even if I say the opposite.

    I <3 youz Dora.

    -Luff Ashlie.

    I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I love you, above all else. Even before I was crushing on you, and then I fell in love with you, you were my best friend, and you were more important than anyone. Your needs will always be first to me, you will always be above everyone else to me, and I will fight however hard I have to, purely to keep what we have. You are my world. You are my everything.

    I love you, Jon.

    It's not like I don't understand how unbearably bitter I'm being about this. But the truth is, I just can't cope. I'm tired of being strong. I don't want to be strong anymore. I've lost countless friends from my attitude as a result from this, and I need my friends, as selfish as I am. They are my dust cover. They cover the gaping hole that is your abscence, but they can never fill it, they're not you, no one is.
    I miss you so much.
    You know that I love you.
    You know who you are.

    She is everything to me
    The unrequited dream
    A song that no one sings
    The unattainable
    Shes a myth that I have to believe in
    All I need to make it real is one more reason
    And I don't know what to do..

    I catch in my throat,
    Choke.
    Torn into pieces
    I won't.. no
    I don't want to be this

    She isn't real.
    I can't make her real.

    It's not like I didn't try to get over you. I tried, so hard, harder than I have ever tried for anything, from Febuary o8 to December o8. There was no difference, not even a slight budge. That was nearly a year of my life wasted.. I was a zombie, all those months. Numb. Neutral. Dead inside. But at the end of last year, I gave up. Now I just close my eyes, and let the pain take me. It's not so bad. It's not like I ever got over you, more that I grew stronger.. enough to bear the weight of it.

    You thought you wanted to read these, huh?
    Some things don't matter so much.

    I luh yew Dora.
    :3
    -Jennifer [Midnightmare.]

    March of Mephisto commences..
    This procession will not, must not, cannot go wrong!

    <3Shagrath.

    You were everything to me. Nobody could compare. Even now, I feel desperately lonely, even when I'm surrounded by friends. And when I have a crush, all I have to do is realise that they're not you, that they never will be you and the feelings are drained; I'm alone once again. Christmas is the worst time.. couples arm in arm. The boy wraps his coat around the girl to keep her warm, and I'm walking past them, hurrying to get them out of my sight. On my own, of course.. but that's the way it is.

    You're nothing but a pack of cards!

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    • AnziG

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    • ,Unexplained

      Hiya :)

      Im cleaning out my friends list
      So choose or get deleted automatically if you do not reply in 3 days
      111-stay, your a great frand :)
      222-go, il still be your friend but i need my console emptying aswell although we can still see each other around the hotel :) bff xx

       
    • Liarss

      oh yeah i know :)

      i live there >;]

       
    • Liarss

      that was very random x]

       
    • mjonathan8

      Why hello there Dora!
      How have you been?

       
    • -Ashlie,

      Poll answer is Baseball . :]

       
    • Vampire.Skull.

      over doing it triggered it
      and maybe something else
      not sure what. :/
      sorry for late reply; am barely on habz atm
      especially with all the updates and the ''new habbo''
      the beta version.... I hate it.
      thats why i'm on facebook more lol.
      and you and jon are soo sweet together <33

       
    • Etadjagu

      Nah its cool.

       
    • Etadjagu

      oh nothing. >_>

       
    • Etadjagu

      Y- nvm.

       
    • Glitterette

      I would decorate it but I'm afraid I'm coinless.... :(

      *sigh* yea my brother luvs them :PP lol they're too brutal for my taste

       
    • HEYGURLXOXO

      i luv ur homepage:]
      random sign, sign back pls?!
      xo

       
    • Brittaneh

      I didn't get to eat the cake but decorating it was fun. ^^ I also became overly enthused at one point and flung frosting on the mirror...but that's neither here nor there. o_o Let me warn you though; that stuff is hard to clean up. It smears all over the place.

      Well, I'm not really sure. I've never heard it before. It sounded kind of like The Killers with talking in the background. It was derailing my train of thought horribly, though.

       
    • killer1999

      YH DAT IS SO OKAY!!!

       
    • Glitterette

      yes i do very much ^.^ my page is so boring :[
      my brother is a very big amon amarth fan lol
      :PP

       
    • Groanings

      *Marries you.*

       
    • Glitterette

      :o your page has so many stickerz. lol

       
    • Cheeseburgerz

      You like Starbucks? Try Dutch Bros Coffee. A million times better.

      Anyways, feel free to butt in! :P

      P.S.

      http://www.dutchbros.com/flash/

       
    • Trembulations

      omg same. love love love skins. its hilarious.
      i cant wait till its back on.
      <3

       
    • Groanings

      I love you back.

       

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