gothik

    I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
    Watch you smile while you are sleeping
    While you're far away and dreaming
    I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
    I could stay lost in this moment forever
    Cause every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

    Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
    And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
    Wondering if it's me you're seeing
    Then I kiss your eyes
    And thank God we're together
    I just want to stay with you in this moment forever.

    And I am not frightened of dying, any time will do, I don't mind. Why should I be frightened of dying? There's no reason for it, you've gotta go sometime.

    Did you try to live on your own
    When you burned down the house and home?
    Did you stand too close to the fire
    Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

    When it's time to live and let die
    And you can't get another try
    Something inside this heart has died
    You're in ruins

    Be strong, be strong now.
    Too many, too many problems.
    Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
    She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
    That's where she lies, broken inside.
    With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
    Broken inside.

    Her feelings she hides.
    Her dreams she can't find.
    She's losing her mind.
    She's fallen behind.
    She can't find her place.
    She's losing her faith.
    She's falling from grace.
    She's all over the place!

    Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.

    You're in ruins.

    Dear Jesus,

    In my hour of need,
    Ha, no, you're not there
    And though I reached out for you,
    Wouldn't lend a hand

    Through the darkest hour,
    Your grace did not shine on me
    Feels so cold, very cold,
    No one cares for me

    Did you ever think I get lonely?
    Did you ever think that I needed love?
    Did you ever think, stop thinking
    You're the only one that I'm thinking of?

    Things will be better when I'm dead and gone,
    Don't try to understand, knowing you, I'm probably wrong.

    I'm not the nicest person on the planet, so I don't say I am, I know exactly who I am. I will never say that i'm an honest person, because sometimes i'm not and even a little dishonesty makes you a liar, no matter how you try to justify it. I'll never say im the most loyal, because I havent always been. I will never build myself up to be great when i'm describing myself to others, that would be a lie and that would make me a fraud. So I can only say i'm doing my best to be a better person.

    When you were born, everyone around you was smiling and you were crying.

    Live your life so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying.

    DANA

    Makes you a stickie***

    I don't know how long i've known you.. seems like ages. xD! You are a cool person to talk to about anything!. You are one wise pixel **bows** You make me laugh and our GB convos are so random. So I say THANKS!

    <3

    Don't lie don't lie to me now
    now I'm erasing you. throwing those
    memories out out to start something new,
    I'm throwing those memories

    Inhale truth I plead,
    For you're my only hope
    Don't lie, don't leave

    Mind set on failure,
    The road you chose,
    Told me, you loved me
    Told me no

    Don't mind me, I'm only dying
    Take your time, I'm only dying,
    Patiently, I kneel here dying

    Don't mind me, I'm only dying.

    Well if you told me you were drowning, I would not lend a hand
    I've seen your face before my friend, but I don't know if you know who I am
    Well I was there and I saw what you did, I saw it with my own two eyes
    So you can wipe off that grin, I know where you've been
    It's all been a pack of lies.

    Joshua
    A super hot computer nerd who is funny, sarcastic, and a bit of a bad ass.

    Damn! That mathlete is so hot, he must be a Joshua!

    Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
    to hold her when I'm not around,
    when I'm much too far away
    We all need that person who can be true to you
    But I left her when I found her
    And now I wish I'd stayed
    ’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
    I'm missing you again oh no
    Once again

    Some search, never finding a way
    Before long, they waste away
    I found you, something told me to stay
    I gave in, to selfish ways
    And how I miss someone to hold
    when hope begins to fade...

    So now I wander through my days,
    Trying to find my ways.
    To the feelings that I felt,
    I saved for you and no one else.

    Don't know just what I should do,
    Everywhere I go I see you.
    You know it's what you planned, this much is true,
    What I thought was beautiful, don't live inside of you anymore.

    What this means to me,
    Is more than I know you believe.
    What I thought of you now,
    Has cost more that it should for me.

    What I thought was beautiful,
    Is only memories.

    What's left inside him?
    Don't he remember us?
    Can't he believe me?
    We seemed like brothers
    Talked for hours last night
    About what we wanna be
    I sit now with his hand in mine
    But I know he can't feel...

    No one knows
    What's done is done
    It's as if he were dead

    I'm close with his mother
    And she cries endlessly
    Lord how we miss him
    At least what's remembered
    It's so important to make best friends in life
    But it's hard when my friend sits with blank expression

    She's beyond beautiful.

    He as hollow as I alone now

    He as hollow as I alone
    A shell of my friend
    Just flesh and bone
    There's no soul
    He sees no love
    I shake my fists at skies above
    Mad at God...Mad...

    He as hollow as I converse
    I wish he'd waken from this curse
    Hear my words before it's through
    I want to come in after you
    My best friend
    Come back!

    He as hollow as I alone...

    Maybe we can talk all night
    But that ain't gettin us nowhere
    I told you everything I possibly can
    There's nothing left inside of here
    And maybe you can cry all night
    But that'll never change the way I feel
    The snow is really piling up outside
    I wish you wouldn't make me leave here
    I poured it on and I poured it out
    I tried to show you just how much I care

    You'll never find your gold on a sandy beach
    You'll never drill for oil on a city street
    I know you're looking for a ruby in a mountain of rocks
    But there ain't no Coup de Ville
    Hiding at the bottom of a Cracker Jack box
    I can't lie
    I can't tell you that I'm something I'm not
    No matter how I try
    I'll never be able
    To give you something
    Something that I just haven't got

    It's not so much the pain
    It's more the actual knife
    Pretending, the picture is perfect
    I cut myself to sleep
    I close my eyes for a second
    And meet a fragile soul
    I scream to hide that I'm lonely
    The echo calls my name
    The water drops just beg to hit me
    Why now? Hasn't rained for days
    No time to play hide and seek
    I call upon you to take me on
    Break me down to pieces
    Put me back, do it right this time
    Struggling to fill this empty shell
    Burn my efforts in the end it means nothing

    There's only one girl that I will ever love
    And that was so many years ago
    And though I know I'll never get her out of my heart
    She never loved me back
    I remember how she left me on a stormy night
    She kissed me and got out of our bed
    And though I pleaded and I begged her not to walk out that door
    She packed her bags and turned right away
    And she kept on telling me
    I want you
    I need you
    But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
    Now don't be sad 'Cause two out of three ain't bad

    If only sorrow could build a staircase, Or tears could show the way I would climb my way to heaven, And bring him back home again. I would do anything to bring him back to you. Because if you got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.

    I'm tired of words and I'm too hoarse to shout
    But you've been cold to me so long
    I'm crying icicles instead of tears
    And all I can do
    Is keep on telling you
    I want you
    I need you
    But-there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
    Now don't be sad
    'Cause two out of three ain't bad

    This life, well it's slipping right through my hands.

    These days turned out nothing like I had planned.


    Soon enough it comes,
    To tie us down..

    Do you know what's worth fighting for
    When it's not worth dying for?
    Does it take your breath away
    And you feel yourself suffocating?
    Does the pain weigh out the pride
    And you look for a place to hide?
    Did someone break your heart inside?
    You're in ruins.

    When you're at the end of the road
    And you lost all sense of control
    And your thoughts have taken their toll
    When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
    Your faith walks on broken glass
    And the hangover doesn't pass

    Look at the dead outside my window
    Wonder what's on their mind?
    Why do they run?
    They all seem to have a mission
    But then they cry themselves to sleep

    You'll receive what you give
    And this is like nothing
    I feel like *****
    But atleast I feel something

    Is this all you're meant to be?

    Their marks in the pavement
    You've walked this route too many times
    What if I change the signs
    Would you even take notice?

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    • DeanoXHill

      Hey Joshie how you been champ

      :)

      its Dean from ht forums

       
    • WhiteRain.

      ): i never got "new guestbook entries!" but aww! I would but my sisters bf's name is Josh and that'd be a little weird LOL!

       
    • Jnkx

      GOTHIK
      laughs ill just leave this here
      <3

       
    • WhiteRain.

      Sorry. I hardly come on Habbo anymore! But I am pregnant :)!

       
    • Jnkx

      I cant sleep so i came on here
      AND THEN I THOUGHT OF YOU SO HAVE A NICE MESSAGE
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      <3

       
    • WhiteRain.

      ive been gooodd! I got news!!

       
    • WhiteRain.

      JOSHHHHH!! Where've you been!?!

       
    • WhiteRain.

      Josh <3

       
    • Xemnas

      Hey!
      Check your Minimails please. :)

       
    • :Duh

      lolomg habbotiles lost official u suck

       
    • :::whydinner:::

      Hey im not sure if yu remember me but i was friends with yu on my old account .?.stacey.?. . Yeah it got banned.. add me dude. We soo must catch up

       
    • eNoobs

      can i ask you something?

       
    • chidiva

      Season's Greetings Josh,
      Have a fruit mince pie, I baked them myself :)

      ,-*-,+,-*-,
      \______/

      Merry Christmas!
      Pene xox

       
    • NeonBobcat

      Tag. :)

       
    • Jnkx

      LOL
      its like infomercials ... I really want a magic bullet still BUY ME ONE
      il get you that vacuum cleaner for your birthday .... in a cake with the 'dana is just way better than you' guy holding it..... in a mankini....... U LIKE??? ;););)

       
    • haidzz.khuzz

      plz accept f\r

       
    • VampireSouls

      Wow!
      It's been ages since we last talked. Bet you can't even remember me. Well considering my username has changed, bet you can't even guess. Anyway, how you been?
      -Emily

       
    • Renaming

      hey, my friend just opened a new forum group, we admit it's very small but were trying to make it big, please could you join by clicking the link: here and please write on the guestbook that renaming invited you. sorry about the spam <3

       
    • Nurse

      HAY I MISS YOU :(

       
    • Evada

      I'm a firm believer that great minds think a like that is a complement, but yes interesting.

       

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    gothik

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    gothik
    The long forgotten.

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